Product Of My EnvIRonMent...

Writing this blog for me is very personal. For the first time in my life I'm sharing my personal thoughts, feelings, experiences, and even fears with the world. In doing so, I hope that what I share and express to you all with affect your life in a positive way.

The other night one of my closest friends and I sat and talked over dinner at one of my favorite BBQ joints, Smokey Bones. We were engaged in several topics of conversation, however one stood out to me. My friend asked the question of me, "Why do most men have tempers?" I proceeded to give my perspective on the question, and of course most of it comes from my own personal experiences.

Growing up for me hasn't been a walk in the park. I was exposed to certain things that affected my life as an adult. I was verbally, physically, emotionally, & mentally abused. In my home there was a lot of domestic violence. Thus, I became this timid, introverted child that suppressed all of his emotions.

I hated my environment, I hated the things I witnessed. I hated how I was talked to and treated. I vowed that when I raised my own family, I would love them unconditionally, and never treat them the way I was treated. However, I became a Product Of My EnvIRonment!!! Those very things I hated, I now was.

In my relationships, I was verbally and physically abusive. I lied! I cheated! I broke hearts! I was controlling, and self centered! I was those very I things hated growing up. It took me years to figure out why I was that way. Was it my lack of continued education? Was it my insecurities? Was it my fears? Was it my environment? All of the above. I had truly become a Product Of My EnvIRonMent. These things and so much more contributed to my short/hot tempered ways and a life of self destruction and violence.

Most of us, be it man or woman, have tempers because of these reasons. We suppress a lot of negative energy. We're afraid of being judge, don't have many outlets, or simply don't know how to get help. Please, lets be mindful of the things we do in life. Everything we do affects someone in a negative or positive light. And for those of you that have children that you are raising...


Remember, they're always watching! Children are the most sensitive and gifted creatures on the face of this planet. Don't let your kids see you do drugs! Don't let your kids see you with a different man or woman each week! Don't let your kids see you arguing with your significant other or spouse! Don't let your kids witness all the negative shit that goes on! Keep them filled with your love and Gods love! Make the Product of their EnvIRonment a positive one. G'Bless


B~Thaike'